- Dear Reader:
This morning I am sitting in a cafe in Poets Cove drinking an absolutely delicious sugar-free, fat-free vanilla latte. I’ve just finished the Prologue and First Chapter of the book “Something Blue” by Emily Giffin. Life is pretty grand.
I’ve had a lot on my mind lately in regard to my life and where it’s going. Marriage is difficult and thrilling and fulfilling all at the same time. There are things I would like to accomplish that are put on hold because well, I have to considerhis needs. Before marriage, I could do whatever I wanted. Things were mine. Now everything, even myself, is ours. You think you’re prepared for this change because you’ve been with this person for 3 years and there couldn’t possibly be anymore surprises, but realistically I don’t think anyone can prepare for the shift in mindset that occurs once you commit forever. This isn’t to say that I’m unhappy. I’m happy every morning, every night, and we laugh and play all day long. Of course, if you know me well, waking me up during a nap causes a touch of grouchiness as he has experienced more than a few times. 🙂 Overall we are in bliss though.
Anyway, the trouble I’m having is combining our purposes and balancing my own individual needs with his. Is there a trick? Am I missing something? Personally, I don’t want to be the wifey that follows the hubby around wherever he dictates. I want to be successful in my own right with him. Does that make sense? Please don’t assume he controls my life either. We’re a team. We’re both on the same page, and of course we have discussed this sort of issue together. I wouldn’t be writing about it online had we not. Honestly, once this immigration process is complete and I am able to work a full time job with more responsibility I will feel a greater sense of self. I will have a positive cash flow that will help contribute to our family. That’s what I think anyway. Hopefully that’s true. Did any of you go through this when you were newly married? Am I crazy?
Poets Cove is pretty much in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by mountains, where boats are the only form of transportation. Chad Krueger from Nickleback was here yesterday having dinner. Seals swim and play next to the dock and starfish are stuck to the rocks in large quantities. Mainly purple starfish, my favorite color. Idyllic is an understatement. There is a charming restaurant with decadent food, a spa next door for the wives who want “mani/pedis” and the men who indulge in massages. Up the hill is a pool and hot tub for kids to play in. The adults call it the Piddle Pool. You get the idea… I could spend weeks here.